The past few weeks I have felt that there’s something not right with me – I felt unusually down, moody, homesick and grouchy. I’ve also felt very sinful, because of certain things that I have done that I am not proud of and not happy about. I tried to believe that God really loves and is gracious with a person like me, but it has been very hard to do that. I know that grace is undeserving, but I felt worse than the undeserving.
Today, however, in church, I was renewed. Completely and totally renewed. Even though I went to church not entirely in a good state of mind, God changed me. He touched me during the pre-service prayer, and I felt especially energetic during praise and worship, something that has been deluding me for a few weeks. I was also convicted during Pastor Andrew’s sermon about Moses and his five different mindsets that God had to change (about Moses being sent to Egypt to bring God’s people out).
I kept on thinking about my past – what I’ve done wrong, the wrong things I’ve said, the wrong things I’ve thought or felt, and the people I have hurt. It kept haunting me. But God reassured me that He has already forgiven me, so why should I continue thinking about all those things? I fought the demons that plagued me.
Then, after sermon and during Communion, I felt that I really communed with God. I rededicated my life to Him, and I totally felt renewed. I’ve never felt so alive! And I am reminded that true, abundant life comes from God and not from anywhere or anyone else. Not from the things I like to do, not from the people I like, not from the books I read (except the Bible) or from the songs I sing.
God is Living Water, indeed!
AND… Today is my dear friend Han-Yu’s birthday! :D Please go and wish her, people!
Your picture really suits your topic che :) I am so happy for you. This is the privilage we get from being God’s children. And everyone is entitled to get it!! :D What a blessing.. Take care!
Pic looks like a “hair removal ad” to me. :]
Hahahaha! :D Yeah, I gotta agree! And the name “Veer” sounds like a hair-removal brand too, right? :P Well, the name is actually “Veet” la, not “Veer”. The girl does look like she’s very happy her hair’s not there, though. Haha! :P